Tuesday, February 26, 2008

kuantan and cherating...




this place..baru je kitarang pegi..cuti raya cina..nak gi berkenalan ngan bakal biras(adik ipar nak kawin)..so we all decide nak stay kat cherating..jalan jam tak payah cakap la,..raya cina...

sampai petang kami carik bilik..bilik full...geram nya..tapi salah kita jugak sapa suruh tak book awal2...tapi syakira sempat mandi kat cherating..for my opinion..tak de la secantik yg digambarkan..may be dah tak terurus...dah jadi tak cantik...

so, kami balik ke teluk cempedak (TC)..dapat bilik kat hyatt hotel...esok bangun mandi pantai..ombak agak besar tak berani mandi lama2...sejuk angin pantai...rasanya TC lagi cantik kut...tapi air dalam skit..

anyway overall..tak best..may be silap cara..anyway kami kena pegi lagi bulan 6 ni..nak bertunang pulak...hopefully will be different way...

vacation to sabah...




kami pegi sabah about one week stay kat umah kakak ipar kat KK...
first day..pego tamu kat kota belud..then pi umah zuniza...anak dah 2 nak masuk tiga..(skang dah 3 la..boys)...best jumpa kawan lama...
then pegi pulau manukan...cantekk giler dia punya tempat...nak snorkling tapi tak de org nak jaga syakira..huhu..abang dapat snorkling...huhu..abang and me janji nak datang lagi..
then kami ade pegi labuan..ingat nak jumpa hariani(dia keja kat sana skang)..tapi dia balik kelantan...hm..dua jam dah habis pusing labuan..kata bebas cukai..tapi tak de barang sgt la..tapi sbb geram punya pasal..beli kain ela bawak balik..and of course perfume..tak nak pegi labuan dah lepas ni...
last destination yg kami sempat pegi ialah kundasang and kaki gunung kinabalu...best..sejuk sgt...
satu lagi yg syok kat sabah ni pasal barang kristal dan mutiara yg cantik sgt..me myself tgk je dah giler...semua cantek..nasib badan dapat husband yg pemurah...hehe..
apa lagi habis la me borong..sampai kakak yg jual tu cakap kat kakak ipar..ni datin mana pulak ni..hahaha....

banyak lagi tempat yg kami tak sempat pegi..tgk la nanti..nak pegi lagi...sementara kakak ipar masih kat sana...

Genting highlands..

hm...baru sekali je pergi sana..2005..best..naik space shot,...kuruh semangat..rasa macam tertinggal jantung kat atas..tobat..tak nak naik dah....
naik roller coster...org lain jerit kuat2..me diam tak terkata..kecut perut...cukup la sekali...
pas tu masuk rumah hantu..huahua..hantu tu tarik kaki..terkejut la den...rasa macam nak pitam..nak nangis pun ader..(actually memang nangis pun..pasal terkejut sgt...)next time nak masuk lagi..hehe..nak sepak hantu tu kuat2..biar PM dia (padan muka)..ahhahhahhh...
pas tu masuk satu cafe kat situ..really cantik dia punya design...tgk la nanti..ingat nak pegi lagi but not sure bila...

cameron highland...

few times dah pegi sana..almakulum dekat ngan ipoh...
sejuk..best..2006,me kena course kat sana..bulan april..masa tu tgh pregnant 4 bulan..dah la course almost 2 weeks...huahua...

course kat hotel rossa padena..(betul ke ejaan tuh..??)..
of course la tak best...nama lagi course..lama lak tuh...
anyway cuaca memang sejuk..tak de aircond kat sana tau..
kaktus dan pokok bunga memang cantik...
lagi satu, kalau makan steamboot memang sedapp je rasa..may be sebab sejuk sgt bila makan steamboot macam sesuai je...

sayur2 memang segar...
teh2 pun segar..
paling best minum teh kat ladang teh..macam kat oversea pulak..haha..

tour to melaka...




hm..one of great vacation...

me and my hubby and of course our syakira went to malacca last year..end of year..it's like yearly honeymoon..to celebrate our anniversary..

we stayed in holiday inn..new hotel..suite room..sekali setahun..hehe..honeymoon la katakan...
very nice view and hotel...malam makan kat umbai..macam2 ade..hehe

the next day. .we all pun kuar jalan2..there was so many places ni malacca..i mean dekat dia punya town la...punya la banyak dia punya zoo dan musium...
tak larat nak tgk semua..tempat yg kami sempat pegi..taman buaya, taman mini..(yg ade rumah mini tradisional seluruh negeri di malaysia),taman rama2...

malam..kami ronda dgn naik beca...best la.....syakira boleh lak lentok..angin malam ..fresh..hehe romance skit...

about seremban..

me pernah ke seremban about 4 days..coz ade course kat sana...so angkut anak sekali..stay kat allson klana resort..hubby ade kije kat kl..so , not really consider vacation...

so, from what i saw not much to tell as me myself could not go out for long period..we just went to supermarket jusco which according to that uncle(driver taxi) is the biggest jusco in M'sia..IS it true???...i dont know..if he kelentong, i didnt care much..but we also quite hard to believe him...

we also went to other s/market but no different with other supermarket in M'sia. so for me, not so good...

Bukit Merah...




ni dah banyakkkkk kali we all pergi... (gambar kat atas tu adelah salah satu rumah persendirian milik org lain tau..cantik betul dai punya view..)

best ...kalau ade anak,bawak diorang main kat water park..ade zoo jugak

kalu nak memancing pun sodappp...
hhehe...my hubby like to fishing...me like too...temankan dia...
kalau tgk tasik, terus meleleh air liur dia...hehe(gurau je bang,...jangan marah ek...hehe)

anyway..sesapa nak gi BM, leh kontek kami..

tour to lumut..

hm..lumut..kita org dah pergi banyak kali..especially kat teluk batik...tapi sekali je stay kat sana 2 nites...kat damai laut resort(tak sure correct name)tempat nya cantik..tapi nak carik tempat tu punya la jauh masuk hutan...

quite ok if nak pegi main air pantai..almaklumla..ipoh ni jauh ngan pantai...kat situ la kira paling dekat..huhu

skang ni satu lagi projek besar nak buat kat sana..Marina Island..pulau buatan manusia..kalau tgk dia punya projek plan..memang cantik..so, tak sabar nak tunggu siap..hehe

tour to pangkor...

hmm..first time pegi ke pangkor june 2006..masa ni tgh pregnant 6 month...pangkor kecik aje..dua hari stay dah cukup keliling pulau..

masa tu sempat snorkling..syakira dalam perut pun snorkling gak..hehe..sbb tu la kuar perut suka sgt main air...best jugak la..

but i think that the last visit to pangkor,..not many places to visit...

tour to penang..

best gak ke penang..last visit time 2004..graduation year..but 2003 pi jalan2...best..banyak tempat gak boleh lawat..batu feringgi best...tak sempat nak shopping ari tu..kali ni pegi nak gi shopping kompleks lak...hehe

tour to langkawi...



last visit 2005...honeymoon..stay kat resort ...that resort ade bilik atas pokok..really nice and beautifull...banyak barang utk shopping..that was the fourth time ke langkawi...tahun lepas kakak ipar ajak pi lagi tahun ni...so far tak de dalam budget lagi..tapi why not???lagi ramai lagi syok...haha...

about KL...

crawded...

traffic jam...

jam, jammed, jamming...haha

nice place for shopping..

not nice to stay...hehe...

about Ipoh...

hm....nice place..peaceful with all the hiburan complete..but so many chinese and indians...i like kelantan more...

no traffic jam...thank GOD..

no sedara mara..kekawan pun kureng....

susah nak cari restoran melayu..ade la tak banyak pilihan....

barang mahal....

nak balik kelate..huahua....

another story...

this was one my experience...story ni macam kat dalam tv je..rupa2nya memang ade terjadi in reality...
one day in ward 8B (lady ward)it was a peaceful day and morning..and as usual i need to do morning round...furthermore it was weekend day..so really calm and peaceful
i started to do round from one to another patient..
then came to one lady..
after i read about the file of the patient..then i saw her face...i smiled and then started asking her bout her condition..."makcik,macam mana hari ni..sakit lagi ke dada tu...atau dah ok skit?.."then she said "sakit lagi.."then i looked at her.."selalu jugak makcik sakit ye..tapi ECG ok je...makcik selalu masuk wad ye.."she nodded..."sakit sangat la nak..kat rumah tu kalau sakit bukan ade yang nak jaga..ade anak pun susah..." i looked at her again..there was something she tried to tell..then.."betul ke makcik ni sakit jantung ni..sebab cara makcik sakit macam bukan sakit jantung ye..lagipun biasa nya pempuan jarang kena serangan jantung"...hm..then she started to cry..she said.."lebih baik makcik duk kat hospital..sekurang2nya ade yg jaga makan makcik..duduk kat umah tuh..macam duduk kat neraka..."...i asked again.."makcik duduk ngan sapa?..."makcik dulu ade anak pempuan yg jaga makcik..dia cacat..walaupun dia cacat dia jaga makcik dgn elok..sekarang dia pun sakit juga..macam mana dia nak jaga makcik..jadi makcik tinggal dgn anak pempuan makcik satu lagi...tapi yang ni, doktor..Allah saja yang tahu.."that makcik started to cry while holding my hands..."makcik tak ampun dia dunia akhirat..biar dia jadi anak derhaka...makcik takkan maafkan dia...".. i was really shocked...but i tried to calm down her.."tenang makcik...jangan cakap macam tuh..dia anak makcik..takkan makcik sanggup tengok dia masuk neraka...may be dia tak sengaja buat kat makcik..dia ade masalah ke?mana tahu kan??....hoping that she realised what she said..."apa dia dah buat makcik?".."dia buat macam2..dia tak bagi makan..kalau bagi makan nasi je...suruh makcik buat kije tu kije ni..masak sendiri..tido pun atas lantai je..cakap dgn suara yg tinggi..menyumpah..."...ya ALLAH..ade ke org macam ni....ish..biar benar makcik ni..ke nak reka cerita...?
so..i really wanted to meet with her daughter...
one day..i met her again with her daughter..so i asked er daughter about patient at home..the moment she talked then i knew she could be like her mum told me...made me realised..what made she behaved like that to her mum...didnt she think that is one of dosa besar...
nauzubillah...minta dijauhkan Allah menjadi anak yang derhaka...
tahukah dia mak dia tak maafkan dia dunia akhirat...
semoga dia sedar apa yg telah dia buat...dan doa utk kita sendiri semoga berusaha menjadi anak yg baik..

another story chinese lady with her son..she is a christian..came for follow up for her diabetic..caming with her son..i could remember her before..last visit she came with her hubby but today with her son..so, son told me that his father just died recently...so, i started consult her and at the same time also explained to her son..what touched my feeling was..the way the son treated his mother..he is nice but the words about his mother not nice,.."doctor, jangan peduli sangat sama dia..dia sudah nyanyuk ,sudah tak betul.."sambil tangan dia tunjuk kat kepala..then the mother marah .."doktor, u see ah..ade anak pun buat sakit hati saja..mengandung sembilan bulan,susah jaga masa kecik..ini saja balasan dia bagi..."auntie cakap dalam pelat melayu...
hmm...me myself tgk je kat anak dia dan pesakit tuh...tak tahu nak cakap apa...it's all about humanity...it's not only about religious...
for me..eventhough betul la mak dia nyanyuk, tak payah la cakap macam tu depan dia...dia ade hati dan perasaan..lebih2 lagi dia adalah ibu yang mengandung dan membesarkan kita.sesiapa diantara kita yg dah ade pengalaman mengandung dan melahirkan tahu la macam mana seksanya nak lahirkan seorg anak..tuptup..bila dah besar cakap macam tuh..alangkah kecilnya hati seorg ibu...

okla..anyhing to share..?

Monday, February 25, 2008

ME, as a medical student...and as a doctor

First and foremost...

Thank to Allah for choose me to be a doctor..

Thank you for my parents for guide me to choose to be a doctor..

Thank you to my husband for his support since i was a student,HO till now..

it's really tough memorable when i remembered about studying medical school..want to know why...because i really hate reading books(but i love story books)...arghhhhhhhhhhhh.....really really hate...i wondered how i survived...

i able to finish in 5 years..thats good enough..i dont need A's ..i need to pass only...Excellent student does not make you a great or good doctor...i'll prove it oneday...

July 2004, i started my HO in Ipoh Hospital..ortho unit first...huh..really hard...i kept saying to myself.."first time is always tough"...then i managed to go thru...then medical unit..the MO's really nice..eventhough lots works to do..i enjoyed the works...

The worst department was surgical..eventhough i was already considered as junior MO but the way they treated to each other...huh...i dont like surgery...i cried almost everyweek hoping day would end fast and i could get out from that department quickly..

Experience handling patient till their death...

first..this happen when day one in medical department..i never faced with death before...there was a patient , 40-50 years(couldnt remember exact age) old indian lady was having shortness of breath, cold clammy hands and this one MO asked me to take her blood pressure...i was so shocked but i did take the pressure..i could not hear the beep but it's really odd if there's no pressure..i tried few times but still unable to get the measure..so when my Mo asked me what's the reading..i was so embarrased so i told him the measure(which was considered a lying)..he not satisfied yet he did not scold me..he took by himself and he told me unrecordable..2 seconds patient died in front of us..well of course we did our best with my first time CPR...the moral that i got that day is..i need to be confident and dont afraid to be scold...what the worst they can do to us is only scolding, yelling, and scolding(which is the synonim word for HO)..no physical contact okey...what u can do back is yelling back..but of course in silent mood please....

second, also happen in medical unit when first time oncall...that day is really bad day...i faced 5 death on my on call day...what a jonah day....
one death i remembered was a makcik malay lady already not a good condition has kidney damage need to go for peritonial dialysis..PD..(maknanya kena cucuk perut dia dan alirkan air dalam badan utk buang toksin dalam badan pasal kidney dah rosak teruk..)...kira scary jugak actually prosedur ni..silap ari bulan tercucuk usus...so that day..i need to do PD to that makcik...she's already 50-50 at that time...so i proceded..but it's worked for one hour only..then started bleeding..my MO said it could be there was small bleeding becuase of that procedure and that makcik become worst...one hour we tried to save her..but Allah loves her more...i was really down because i kept thinking i took her life...but as my MO said she's already in bad condition so
it's just that i make it fast...huahua..sampai hati kooo cakap macam tuh................i saw the family members face..they were looking at me..with tears...but they could not see my heart also crying badly..so at the end of the day..how hard to learn something that need other to sacrify..

third..another death that i could not forget till now is...ex staff nurse chinese has a daughter who is a doctor ni Sarawak..she was from manjung had been diagnosed to have haemorrhagic dengue fever...was refered to hospital ipoh at that time with platelet already 11x103..really,really low...need urgent transfusion...that day i was oncall..so i need to monitor the patient..need to do everything fast..but as u know..goverment hospital ..how to be fast and furious....??..after 2 hours only she be able to receive transfusion..i barely slept that nite...may be few minutes..need to close monitor..then at 630 am..she started to have shortness of breath..i thought could be pleural effusion which already diagnosed ealier..i gave and did anything that i supposed to do..at that time her daughter want to talk with me..asking about her mother...tgh2 cakap..mak dia menghembuskan nafas yg terakhir..betapa sayu nya hati dan panik nya myself tgk pesakit tuh..anak dia kat sarawak memang terkejut sbb tiba2 bunyi bising melalui telefon...can u imagine that...hearing ur own mother dying only thru phone...that's case was sent up to state coz it's dengue case..she was a healthy person but died because of dengue ...who knows their fate in the future??..no one knows...only ALLAH knows..

anyway another things i learned...kita hanya merawat tuhan yg menentukan..since that day..everytime i wanted do PD.. i'm so scarry..i swear i will not procede my study in medical...

these are part of my experience that i want to share with...part of memory of being bullied, tortured...and the end of the day..i kept thinking and asking my self..how could i survive...Can i call my self..I"M SURVIVOR...

ME, myself...

Me, myself..

i did not remember much about myself in primary school...what the good things that i remembed is i won first place for writing a story(cerpen).. when i 11 yrs old and i've got 4A for my UPSR(that time 4 subject only)...some people said "zaman kanak2 paling best.."but not for me...zaman secondary school paling best...da greatest and da best...

hm...berkenalan dgn yani, zue, shila, and geng 1-3/5 dan 4-5/4 and of course girls same batch, mc lin,aiza,and ramai lagi la...paling menyeronokkan in my life...
bayangkan dari tingkatan satu hingga lima..kita sama2 membesar di dalam satu hostel yg sama...

kita dah lebih dari seorg kawan..gembira suka duka dah sama2 rasa ...
makan kat dewan makan, mandi kat kolah sama2..wah,,really memorable..
air yg selalu tak ade..betul2 menyesakkan minda..ade yg sanggup tak mandi plak tuh...haha

hari paling i suka kat smach ialah hari khamis...pasal petang tak de prep..cuma ade aktiviti ko je...malam boleh lepak2..dengar walkman..borak2 kat katil ,actually sebetulnya gosiping la, atau pun mengayam ketupat..haha..boleh tido lewat..almaklum la me, myself terkenal dgn tido awal..haha..

gossip??...mana ader..saya la budak paling berjurus di abad 93 - 97 ...
haha...betul la ..apa tak betul nya...

and the most great ending...spm 97..9A,1C3 with 6 aggregat...Alhamdulillah..

my love things...

first of all, of course my ladybird car...gift from hubby...thank you darling...

second, my pinky laptop...really cute,really,really...hehe

third, my sony camera...maroon color..

fourth,my handphones, nokia 76 and PDA O2..

fifth, my diary..

what's yours??...

interest.???

me suka travelling, vacation, de tour apa2 yg seangkatan dgn nya...

lagi, suka shopping..especially handbags..(bila la nak berubah ni)...and perfumes...(this one hubby yg suka... beli sepasang...me likes too)

lagi, suka tgk movie..dating ngan hubby...

lagi, suka duduk saje..haha..tapi duit masuk..(ade ke macam ni)....

lagi, baca buku cerita,...novel melayu and english..love story..macam boleh bukak library je..anyway niat dihati nak bukak lib kat umah...besarnya angan2...hehe

what's your maniac..


hm...mine..i love handbags..really love them..
coach, guess, bonia, carlo rina, vincci, giamax, alfio raldo, local also ..beethoven, cael deon,rorine..
hehe...hm..teruknya..macam mana nak kurangkan tabiat suka handbags ni...:P..
macam2 warna dan gaya..janji cantik di mata..
hubby dah geleng kepala...he said i need satu almari besar nak simpan beg2 ni...huahua..perli la tuh...
anyone has same interest?..may be we can share...or any other interest..may be..

my personal life...







what should i mention..hmm..briefly okey..

12th Dec 2005 , at 1230 (supposed 12 noon ..but because pengantin pempuan lambat..hehe..that's what my hubby always mentioned..)..i'm legally and officially mrs zawardy..thankful to Allah for this Rahmat to us..
my hubby..is a wonderful person ..(sapa lagi nak puji kalau bukan wife dia..hehe)..i really mean it..loving,understanding especially bab2 bagi wife dia shopping..(haha), pemurah hati kat wife dia, nice, gentleman, smart person..
i love him (hubby) very much..really ,really...
How do we start??..
since secondary school..(tak percaya..?)..hehe..anyway..
Hmmm...not much i can tell u...hehe..let it be a secret(seperti kata datin seri siti nur haliza..biarlah rahsia)...



nur hana syakira.....
kini, kami dah dapat seorang puteri yg sungguh comel dan bijak...nama Nur Hana Syakira..(nama anak papa yg bagi..that's our deal)..lahir 31 august 2006 merdeka day..supposed 30th sept..tapi buat nya dia nak kuar awal..terus pilih date..hehe..bagus,bagus..tak payah mama dia susah2 nak mitak cuti...plat no 08 la..(IC dia)
masa kuar ade problem..fetal distress..dgn kata lain baby lemas..so tak sempat mama nak tgk muka terus dibawa ke ICU hospital ipoh..esok tu baru boleh tgk dia...huahua..syakira kena intubated..2 hari dan dia stabil..she's very strong baby like her father..so sad masa tgk dia duk ICU..mama sanggup tukar tempat dgn syakira...
selama 14 hari dalam wad dan 5 hospital syakira dah stay..mama pun ikut sama..tak pe la asal anak mama sihat.
alhamdulillah..syakira sihat dan walafiat selepas tu sampai la sekarang..doa mama dan papa semoga sihat akhir hayat..
alhamdulillah..target minimun 3 org max 5 org..that's our wish la..

selamat berkenalan..:P


assalamualaikum...
selamat berkenalan...to all my friends..hm..i'm not sure why i create this but ..it's just my heart told me to do so..so here i'am..hopefully, there will be something that we can share...

well,let me start with my self..
i'm 27 years old..and a doctor..medical doctor..working in one of goverment clinic,Ipoh..(i talk about Ipoh later..hehe)..almost 4 years already working as a doctor...
married to Mr Zawardy Ab Latiff..very wonderful person..has a beautiful daughter, named Nur Hana Syakira..and waiting the next one...(tak tau bila..hehe)...hopefully next year cause this year dah tak sempat...huhu..or may be sempat lagi...hehe..